I can’t shake the feeling that I could have done more with my life.
I know I am underestimated by a lot of people, those people used to make me doubt myself, as I grew up and learned new things and taught people new things, helped guide them, I noticed the people who underestimate me are the ones with a limited view of the world. I am not going to count on:
4. The attention of men
To gain self esteem like most of this generation does, because if you do that, you depend on people to make you happy, we all heard it a million times but it does start from within. Don’t get me wrong, those things are great, they feel good, they are warranted when you do a good job, but you cannot rely on others to make you happy, people leave, they always leave, its a part of life, let them go, the people with you right now, they are meant to be there. let them bring you comfort and validation if you need it from others.
I don’t just want to fall in love, have kids, get married, decorate my home, not that there is nothing wrong with it, but I don’t feel like living the conservative woman’s lifestyle is for me.
I used to think that’s what I was supposed to do, and that I was weird for not wanting it, but times are changing and living in South Dakota has taught me that EVERYTHING about me was wrong, until I traveled, read, met people, and talked to people all around the world and I am not the only woman, and not just woman, but woman of COLOR to aspire to be something great.
I know I’m limited int he time I have.
I want to make it count, have a legacy, be remembered as someone who made a difference in someones lives.
We all look for validation, it feels great, but when are we going to start allowing ourselves to validate what we like about ourselves?
Changes are being made constantly, so are rules.
If there is nothing wrong with an aspect of yourself, its who you are. embrace it, tweak it, and if its hurting others, change it.
Ugh she was so beautiful
I’m glad I always let it be known how much I loved her